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Well lets see...I got my lisence January 14th! Yay! The parents have been pretty gay about going places, but hopefully that'll get better. I also have a job at Steak n Shake on 256 by the movies. Waitressing baby. It's hard work geez! So today it's been 3 months since Andrew and I broke up. I don't know if it feels longer or shorter then that. It's almost half of the time we dated. I do hope to make ammends with him. I'd like to feel good about everything and put it in the past someday. Matt and I had been having some problems, but we made up..and you know one of the things i love about us is that we just picked up right where we left off. Counsling with Amanda today..most of the time was taken up by the problems between me and my parents over driving and all that shit. But I've been hanging out with some fun peeps latley. Jordan, Trevor, Jory, Jessica, and Matt again. And there's this mystery guy that will remain nameless that I really want to get to know, because he seems amazing, but he's kinda on the shy side so it's hard. But I'm back to a regular sleeping pattern and eating pattern yay! And overall I'm a lot happier then i've been in a long while. =)

Well first off Happy New Year!!! 2006 baby! I had a wonderful new years eve party at my dance studio, with food, shows, and dancing. I had a total blast. In my lessons Cristiano says I'm dancing on a new level and we're working on routines, because he wants to compete with me...Aww that was really sweet. =)What I'm writing about today is significant in its own. Friends come and go, they tend to pass you by, like the wind. When someone sticks around you know you've found something special. But when friendships fall apart or are traveling down that road..it's quite devastating. But new friendships will be made and maybe you can repair the old. Since I've been going to counseling and seeing Amanda I've worked through a lot of things. I've gone from crying in her office about missing Andrew to not having any feelings for him and telling her I miss the hole he filled. Moving on from that is so awesome! I thought I'd never stop having feelings for him, because they were so strong, but I did, I moved on. I still care about him and I always will, I still wonder if things could've been different, I still smile whenever I remember one of our inside jokes, but I don't want it back, I'd never take it back. =) I'm really proud of myself for being able to be so strong and move on. One thing that's been awesome is Jessica. She's gone through the same thing and we're able to be there for each other. I love hanging out with her, she's such a sweetheart. I've been happier the last few days..I'm not sure what it is, but I like it. I think things are finally falling into place for me...xoxo <333

I got new dance shoes! So pretty! =) Matt took me to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory and then to the Nutcracker Friday and it was awesome. So magical. Saturday wasn't to pleasant, but we learn from things don't we? So Trevor is pretty cool..he still needs to find a time when he's not busy..haha that's never. I'm quite sick at the moment and I'm not enjoying it. I'm going to the doctor today to have blood work done and see whats wrong with me/ why i'm so tired all the time. I have a dance lesson in an hour. hopefully i can have a good time even tho i'm sick and feel like crap. Wednesday I'm i'm going to the ARC Christmas party with the MRDD people and Thursday I'm going to one of their plays down town as well as seeing my best friend RACHEL from Kentucky! I love you girl! I haven't seen her in a year! I'm so siked! woot! We leave Friday late morning for Indiana to see my grandparents and and uncle and cousins for Christmas...sigh* I'm not really looking forward to this... they're sooooo rich and go all out for Christmas...plus theres never anyone to hang out with or talk to...but i'm going to try and have a good attitude about it...

Soooo I'm definatly in love with Dance!!!! Cristiano is my hero and I'm in love with him! haha <3 I worked at ARC today with the MRDD kids. Omg I love them! Steve-o, and Jeremy are my favorites, and little Junie even tho he's a trouble maker. They packaged all this candy for Limited Too it was really cool to see and Kim put me incharge of it all! So my mom has been awful towards be latley...we got into a major fight today and she said so many hurtful things to me..I don't know why she has to make me feel so bad?! I NEEEED MY LISENCE!!!! I have no modivation to do my school work or clean anything...I don't really know what's wrong with me. I just want to be with my friends, working at ARC, dancing with Cristiano, and sleeping...some life eh? So I surprised Matty boy at work and I stayed till he got off and then we went to get coffee. I love this kid! <3 He got stuck in my coat haha! LOVE YOU MATT! <33 xoxo